Here goes nothing

Hello, My name is Alex.

For many years I struggled on what I wanted to do. I worked a lot of jobs and I was floundering. I gave up on school because I could not pass algebra. I was at a job where I was comfortable. I was working 40 hours a week, and I was okay if I worked there for many years. I asked for a dollar raise, and the next day they let me go. BOOM I was back to square one. I had to reevaluate my life.

I decided I did not want to work retail anymore. My mom and my friends always pushed me to go back to school because they believed I had something to offer and I was too smart to be working retail. I was scared to go back to school because like I said I could not pass algebra. I failed the class three times, and I tried every which way to pass it to no avail. I decided to buckle down and try this algebra class one more time. My girlfriend is great at math and my two closest friends are great at math also. WELL I ended up passing algebra with a B. I literally could not believe it. After that class I had a confidence that was gone for many years.

Before I started going back to college (which I started in 2008) I began with a GPA of 1.56 and I was on academic probation. My first semester back I retook four classes I had failed. I passed all of them with Bs and As. I had graduated in 2013 with my AA in psychology but I couldn’t transfer any where without that passing that algebra class so I stopped. Fast forward to these past two years, and I changed my major again (for 5498723th time). I had always been a pretty good writer and I used to write short stories. I love movies, music, and sports so I decided to check out journalism.

I took my first journalism class and it lit a fuse in my heart. I absolutely loved it. I loved the writing and I loved the process of creating a story. I finally figured out what I wanted to do. I could finally see the light at the end of the tunnel which had been pitch black for several years. I took a few more classes, I passed the final math class that I needed to transfer to a university, and last semester I ended writing for the Moorpark College Student Paper. I covered the wrestling season and I ended up covering a movie, a Halloween horror night type event, and a album release. [Movies, Music, and Sports.] The biggest thing was that I had bumped my GPA up to a 2.76 which was high enough to apply to Cal State Northridge. I ended up applying and I am waiting to hear the results.

I finally figured I would start a blog. Where I can write reviews of movies and music. I have been wanted to start one for many years but I have been to scared to do it. I think the fear comes from me not being good enough to start one and that no one will read. I think I have come to the conclusion that it is okay. It’s okay no one will read it. I need to do this for me. I want to start a podcast too where I talk to my friends. I am too afraid to do that too because I hate my voice and I have a slight stutter, BUT I plan on doing that too. The expectations that I have for myself weigh me down because I think overnight my blog will be as big as The Huffington Post or my podcast will be as big as The Joe Rogan Expirence. I need to stop thinking like that and just do it. SOOOO here I go.

Don’t let fear or insecurity stop you from trying new things. Believe in yourself. Do what you love.

—Stacy London

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